Showing posts with label change. Show all posts
Showing posts with label change. Show all posts

Sunday, June 26, 2011

A New Serenity Prayer


I recently wrote and spoke in class about a meditation experience that awakened in me a realization of the need to change.  So it was interesting that this morning while looking through an old journal, I stumbled upon something I had jotted down a while back and it made me smile at how the universe delivers the "teachers" we need at exactly the right time.

Here's what I found:

"God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know it's me." (author unknown)

Although we sometimes crave change and we sometimes dread it, we cannot escape it.  All we can do is keep working toward a quieter mind and have the courage to take responsibility of the quality of our actions and attitudes that surround the changes that appear.

From the same journal entry:
"Change is not a direct or even indirect consequence of yoga or any other practice.  We cannot depend on it.  What we can count on gaining from our yoga practice is a quieter mind - somehow the heaviness, jumpiness and worry vanish.  Yet something very personal and essential has to happen for us at the right time, and it has to touch us so deeply that we suddenly really want to pause, consider, and change the course of our actions.  After this happens we simply go forward step-by-step.  The quality of our action begins to change.  The new positive conditioning becomes stronger and our mind remains clear.
If real clarity is present, we experience quietness and peace within us.  If there is only intellectual clarity, we may be happy for a moment or two, but this feeling will not last.
Our aim in yoga is to bring about a change in the quality of the mind so that we can perceive more from the consciousness.  Yoga attempts to influence the mind in such a way that it is impossible for our consciousness to operate without hindrances." 

The above passage was scrawled in my journal without reference to where it came from (note to self: I really need to change my messy note taking habits!).  I'm fairly certain it came from The Heart of Yoga by T.K.V. Desikachar, but nonetheless it's a beautiful illustration of what the practice of yoga can do to awaken a more conscious way of living.

Ultimately what matters most isn't what others see in you, it's what you see in yourself.  The power to make changes comes from within.  Self-observation, focus, willpower, strength, wisdom, faith - they give you the power to change.


Until next time...




WELCOME CHANGE by Sri Chinmoy   
Don't resist;  
Be flexible.  
Don't be rigid; 
Be supple.  
Welcome change! 
Each change  
Is an illumining opportunity 
To knock at the door  
Of fulfilling progress sweet.~

Change yourself slowly   
And cheerfully.  
Conditions will change immediately 
And unimaginably.~

The mind thinks  
That any change 
Is painful.  
The heart feels 
That any change 
Is powerful.~

Change your attitude!   
Look what stands before you: 
Plenitude!~

Change your mind 
If you do not want anybody 
To bind your life.~

Not because you are clothed 
In a frail body,  
But because of your stubborn
Unwillingness to change, 
Your life is a misery-haunted house.

The entire world may not change. 
The entire world cannot change. 
The entire world even will not change. 
But your tiny world you can and will change 
forever at this very moment with the help of your 
heart. 

Today's Strengthening Flow playlist:
Frosti-Bjork
Timshel-Mumford and Sons
Drops In The River-Fleet Foxes
Change-Blind Melon
All These Things That I've Done-The Killers
She's Only Happy In The Sun-Ben Harper And The Blind Boys of Alabama
Dust In The Wind-Daughter Darling
Acid Tongue-Jenny Lewis
The Greatest Sum-The Avett Brothers
To Let Myself Go-Ane Brun
Journey Through The Past-James Mercer
Dust In The Wind-Fred Benedetti
Changes-Seu Jorge
Innocent Son-Fleet Foxes
Those To Come-The Shins
Remembrance-Benjy Wertheimer




Saturday, January 15, 2011

365 Journal Project: The Beginning

So, this past New Year's Eve, in the quiet closing hours of 2010, I sat in silence and for a long while reflected back on the year that had past.  It was a challenging year on many fronts to be sure; at times scary, tiring, and soul searching.  But it was also a year of love, light, prosperity, amazing personal growth, change and clarity (talk about Yin and Yang!).

2010 started out with uncertainty.  Someone I love more than anything suffered from complete mental exhaustion and mental breakdown.  I don't know if you've ever experienced such a thing, but all I can say is that other than the loss of my parents, it was perhaps one of the saddest, scariest and most challenging things I have ever come up against.  The months that followed consisted of a slow process of healing, rebuilding and awakening to a new way of life (an ongoing process we are told).  Much has changed as a result-in the best of ways-and out of the darkness of those first few months came incredible, transformation and light (in yoga we call this "tapas", the burning away of impurities, baby!)  I am truly thankful for it.  

Just as things were beginning to settle down, I had a major health crisis that took the wind out of my sails physically, mentally and spiritually.  With the help of John (my wonderful husband), my friends and an amazing Ayurvedic practitioner (Vishnu rocks!), my condition stabilized.  Thanks to my yoga practice I am strengthening my body and getting my stamina back.  It's been a slow, humbling process, but I'm feeling better and stronger every day.  Because of my meditation practice I have refreshed my mind and renewed my spirit.  Taking the time to sit and meditate each day will change your life!

What really astounded me was watching how the support of my meditation and yoga practices continued on without pause.  Even during the most difficult moments, even during the times when it felt as though I were getting kicked while I was down, the inner stillness was felt with profound clarity.  Daily practice kept me afloat and present with what was happening. Yoga and meditation saves me everyday and enriches my life in more ways than I can possibly articulate.  This isn't to say that I didn't have my moments of despair or self-pity, I'm human!  But daily practice allowed me to see and observe that those not-so-nice thoughts were impermanent.

When I started to get back on my feet towards the end of autumn, a little light started to flicker in me and grow brighter and brighter. In my life "B.Y." (Before Yoga) I worked as an artist and jewelry designer.  From the time I was small I was always creating something: paper dolls with my mother, castles made of cardboard, "cars" for our cats made out of discarded boxes, you name it.  When I got older the medium of collage resonated with me and it took off from there.

The 365 Journal Project is a project born out of my meditations.  I set an intention in my journal on New Year's Eve to work on some sort of artwork everyday.  This is what emerged:



 The next day I found myself pulling out my paper bits, glue, etc and turning the page in the journal for the next entry, and here I am 16 days later and still going!  It is my intention to document a full 365 days of visual mediations.  I don't start out with an idea or theme.  I simply let the images choose me.  I weave them together and when I'm through, the images reveal to me a deeper meaning, a doorway into my inner world, a mirror.

It is my hope to share with you what manifests.

In the meantime, I encourage you to get on your yoga mat and stretch, move, and breathe!  Sit in silence for 5, 10, 15, 20, 30 minutes a day.  Ask questions of your spirit but don't wait for an answer.  Just listen with your heart.

Namaste :)

Love,
k